Intuition
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My mom always told me about “mother's intuition.” I always thought it was an excuse not to let me go somewhere or not let me hang out with someone. As I matured, I started to recognize my own intuition. And believe me when I tell you my intuition is strong almost too strong, whereas I have been accused of being ‘crazy’ - hehe.
For those of you who don’t know what intuition is:
According to Oxford Languages, intuition is “a thing that one knows or considers likely from instinctive feeling rather than conscious reasoning.”
It is that feeling you get about something, someone, or someplace/event, and you just know it to be true without any reasoning or any proven facts being presented at that moment.
An example of this, from my personal arsenal, is I was causally dating a guy. We had known one another for a long while, about four years at that point. We decided that we would spend a weekend together; I booked my flight from Miami and got everything squared away. A day or two before my flight I woke up out of my sleep, literally two or three o’clock in the morning, and texted him “Are you sleeping with your ex right now”, the next morning he followed up said “No, I was asleep” — WHICH is not a lie because he was…next to his ex…after they had finished having sex.
You may be saying “Baylee, how do you know that he was with his ex?” “How do you know they had sex?” Well for starters, my intuition. Secondly, he texted me a few hours after his lie and said the following:
Now…we ended up getting on a call, and he let me know he was with his ex. They did have sex, and he did sleep over there. Then, I let him know the flight was canceled. Luckily, he didn’t call me crazy and just owned up to what he had done and what he lied about.
Obviously, not all men are the same and some have, in fact, called me crazy, insecure, psychotic, manipulative, etc. ALL WHILE knowing damn well everything I brought to them, even though I didn’t have ‘proof’, was true.
I also want to add that I am a very calm person. I don’t let a whole lot get to me - especially when it comes to men and dating. All I ask is that open and honest communication happens. And they receive the same in return (sometimes a bit too open and honest, but we can talk about that in another entry).
Anyway, I have approached men about various things because of my intuition; why do they follow who they follow on social media, why didn’t they let me know when they made it home, why has there been spotty in communication, why is there an earring on their bathroom counter, why hadn’t they taken me out on a public date, why I am only able to see them on Thursdays, why did they hide their story from me on IG, why wasn’t their location working, why can they only come over to my place — the list can go on and on. I asked the men I have dated those questions always out of curiosity and wanting to understand something that my intuition was trying to get me to see. The only time(s) it was in an accusatory way was when I listened to my intuition, looked into things, and gathered the ‘proof’ they needed and I brought it to them. Even then, I was still called insecure, crazy, etc.
Right now, I am specifically talking about intuition in terms of dating, but honestly, listening to your intuition applies to all aspects of life. Your body is telling you something, and you should listen and investigate unless, of course, it would put you in harm’s way or if something is absolutely, without a doubt, none of your business.
When it comes to listening to your intuition though…I am 100% still working on that part. I like to think there is a line, right? You need to listen to it but you don’t want to just fall too deep into believing whatever it is telling you because a little bit could be anxiety, trust issues, attachment issues, etc. For me I find that listening to my intuition and then asking whoever is involved point blank and observing behavior afterwards will tells me a lot. People will tell on themselves more often than you think, just have to pay attention!
If you are blessed with one, use your intuition as a compass and a caution guide; it’ll save you in the long run - trust me lol.
I hope this helps you feel a little less ‘crazy,’ a little less ‘insecure’, or a little less whatever a man who is trying to make you question yourself calls you.
xoxx,
B
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