Grateful

HIII

It has been a minute since I have written in this space, literally over two months, oops. It is not for lack of wanting to post on here because trust me there have been multiple times where I wrote out an entry then deleted it because it just wasn’t productive - it wasn’t the energy I want to add into the world. When I was a little girl my mom always told me and my sister “if you have nothing nice to say, don’t say anything at all.”

Anyway, here we are. Today is Thanksgiving. I am honestly not the biggest fan of Thanksgiving - but something I do enjoy is giving thanks! I like the sentiment around it, kinda the same reason why New Years is my favorite holiday, people behave in a way that I like. Hearts and attitudes filled with love, joy, hope, and gratitude! With that being said I want to share what I am thankful for.

Although this past year has been very hectic - between traveling a ton, having a lot on my plate at work, and a couple of state to state moves, I have a ton to be thankful for.

One this is being able to work remote and have the support that I do have within the team I am on is amazing. We have had a lot of projects and the way we come together and get things done is lovely to be apart of. Stemming off that, I am so fortunate to have a true remote work position. If I didn’t work remotely, I wouldn’t have been able to visit as many places and friends as I did, especially in these past six months.

Speaking of friends, goodness, I have the best circle of friends. The people that I surround myself with are truly the most kind hearted, ambitious, caring, honest, and supportive group of individuals and I love them so much. I won’t name everyone because I know they all know who they are but I am forever grateful for the amount of love I feel from them every single day. We are spread all over the world and have so much going on personally but still find time to connect and that is so incredibly important.

I also want to say I am very thankful for my mom and dad. As you may have read before, our relationship hasn’t always been tight knit. Since I moved home after being away for damn near 7 years, they really helped me get out of a place mentally that was not lending a hand to my growth. Then I left again, which they supported, and after that didn’t go as planned they welcomed me back home. Now, as I leave again on Saturday they are fairly supportive of me, a little skeptical but I mean given the history - who wouldn’t be lol. But that aside, I can see growth not only in our relationship with one another but also within them as individuals which I am incredibly thankful for.

Kellen, my baby brother, my twin. I truly don’t know what I would do without him. When he was growing up, I wasn’t around much but since I have moved home our relationship has developed more than I could ever hope for. He is truly one of the most emotionally intelligent people that I know. He adds such value and perspectives that I wouldn’t have ever thought of when I talk to him about things going on in my life. It's so fun seeing him grow up and really look forward to see how far he goes in life.

AND FINALLY ME - I am thankful for me. I don’t think people show themselves enough gratitude in fear of being seen as self absorbed. but the way I see it is at the end of the day, I am who I have. I am truly blessed, even through all the bullshit. My ability to gracefully keep pushing through difficult times is something I admire.

I hope you are able to find some thanks in today and every day!

xoxx,

B